I don't know what to do anymore, and I need help please?

Well....love for the most part is wonderful..but as for most failed relationships(such as yours),it's well past the time to let go and move on.I know exactly how you feel I went through the same thing with my ex husband,and there are the times when I still 'feel' as though I'm still in love with him,even though we've been divorced for over 5 years now.It took me a very long time to finally be able to let him go...from my mind I mean.I was hanging on to something that was never going to be again.LOVE.I'm sure that your ex has moved on by now and he's happy where he's at with his life.So why would you even think of messing that up? Why would you even consider doing this all over again..what I mean by that...is why would you interfere into his life again? Let it GO..It's been 2 long years,it might not sound that long mentally but if you were to just stop for 1 minute and really think...think about just how long 2 years is...That's a long time,and for you go interfere into his life again...that's just not fair and it's not the right thing to do to anyone.There is something else going on here..and I really don't think it has much at all to do with your ex.Like I said...there is something else going on...I'm not sure what it is only you know that...and then again...maybe not! You should consider more intensive therapy to get to the root of this issue,and see why your clinging onto something that's long gone.Maybe it's due to the comfort it gave you back then...maybe it's due to the fact that it made you fel loved and wanted back then,and your hoping to feel that again..IF you could just have your boyfriend back again...If maybe you could have your b/f back again?Then maybe you could also feel all the love,comfort,attention and affection that it once gave you.But..the fact IS..it's now gone and there IS no turning back time....It's time for you to move on with your life and I really wouldn't get involved in another relationship until you get yourself in a much better mental state of mind...I feel your pain and sadness..I really do..but hanging onto someone or something that's no longer there? It's just not healthy and it only going to keep you miserable and it's going to prevent you from moving forward with your life.Please try to get more intensive therary,ok? It will help you and once it starts to help you...you will then begin to move forward with you life..not only that.But you'll also start feeling more impowered also....you'll start loving yourself again too,and that's so much more important that loving anyone else.I wish you ALL the best dear and I honestly hope that everything works out for the best in your life.GOD BLESS.